I was her bitch ! What is wrong with me?

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I was her bitch ! What is wrong with me?I am a 41 year old married heterosexual woman. Two weeks ago i attended this one day developing business skills for women classes . I was wearing a pink long sleeve satin bow blouse ,black satin pants, and 5 inch heels pink shoes. I had full make up on.I was just standing outside waiting for it to start, and skinny really short like 5 ft 2 ugly freckled face creepy green eyes thin lips red haired masculine 53 year old woman in her mid 50s behind me started stroking my back and saying “You have a beautiful blouse. Wow. You are such a big woman. Standing next to you i look like a midget.” She was in flat shoes and i was on high heels, i am 5ft10 tall and that, coupled with being well built and well endowed , i was really like a giant standing beside this weird woman.She asked me” Wow. You are so shiney. Why are you so overdressed? You look so glammed up “.” I like dressing well, and looking presentable. I ’d rather be wearing something i feel good in than look like i just rolled out of bed.I wear high heels every day too.All the time.” I answered to her.”I am unemployed and broke. I am 53 year old and I have always been poor I am here to learn how to make money. I don’t want to die poor. Why are you here? “. she asked me.I introduced myself to her and told her that i own a store and that i want to improve my business skills.This ginger midget woman said to me “Common big woman” Then she grabbed my left hand with her left hand and she placed her right hand on my back. We entered. There were over 30 women in their 40s and 50s. I walked towards the registration table and she walked beside me with her right hand still placed on the center of my back. As I bent over the table slightly to register myself this ginger midget woman put a hand on each of my hips and positioned herself behind me. I stood up straight and gasped a little, as she still held my hips. Again she said “You are such a big woman. Wow” . Then i sat on chair in the corner and she sat next to me on my left side. This creepy weird ginger old touchy feely woman was really close as if she was pushing me into a corner. I crossed my legs and she placed her right hand on my right knee. She rested her hand on my knee. At first it wasn’t really a problem but then she started to caress my knee with her fingers. Eventually she moved her hand up slightly and it became much more noticeable. She said to me” I just love your pants. They must be expensive. They are so shiny. And this satin material is so smooth to touch.” She kept caressing my knee with her right hand. I was creeped out at that point and I looked in her direction, but she just kept patting my left leg. . Then i got up to introduce myself , and as she was sitting she placed her right hand on my ass. She just rested her hand on my ass. I sat back in the chair, this ginger midget touchy feely woman got up to introduce herself, she placed her right hand open palm on my left collar bone. Her introduction was so long, so she stood there talking with her right hand resting on my left collarbone. She sat back on the chair güvenilir illegal bahis siteleri and she put her right arm around me and started patting my right shoulder. Then with her left hand she tucked my hair behind my ear and back, without asking. Then she started playing with bow of my blouse with her left hand. So she had her right hand around me patting my right shoulder, while with her left hand she was playing with a bow of my blouse. At one point she stopped playing with bow of my blouse,but she placed her left hand on my left upper breast and she just left her hand there. Then she moved her right hand lower from my right shoulder to my right upper breast. She patted my upper breasts with her both hands for like 10 minutes.Then she moved her hands from my upper breasts gathered my hair into a ponytail and suggested she could hold it like that , put her right hand on top of my head, she nearly grabbed the sides of my face with her left hand but then stopped herself and said ‘nearly grabbed your face then, people would’ve thought ‘what’s that weirdo doing to that poor woman” Then she put her right hand on my leg and I moved it and she just laughed. A few minutes later she put it back, further up my thigh. She whispered in my ear “Big woman i am just showing appreciation for your clothes. I love your style. You are so overdressed”. She just rested her right hand on my right thigh.I am ashamed to say that I just sat there and let her do all that to me. Than we had lunch break. This weird touchy feely ginger woman went to the restroom. I went outside to eat my lunch. After i finished my lunch i sat with a group of women to talk about the workshop. Then i went to the restroom. I got back and this ginger touchy feely woman was there sitting in my chair. She said to me ” Big woman i stole your chair. So, you can sit on my lap then” . She grabbed my right hand and sat me on her lap. I tried to get up from her lap but she stopped me from getting up like if I was a naughty c***d trying to run away. “You are so heavy big woman, but your place is here on my lap” she said jokingly. it was just so embarrassing. I just sat there silently on her lap, while she was patting my back with her left hand and playing with bow of my blouse with her right hand surreptitiously touching my breasts. Other women there were weirded out by our behaviour, but they ignored that and said/did nothing as if nothing was happening.I think that the women there were in shock themselves? Some people don’t like to get involved if they feel uncomfortable or not sure what is going on. These women were pretending that is not happening with confused looks on their faces. But it was bizarre. Standing next to this touchy feely ginger old woman I looked like a giant and I was letting her get by with it. Other people there probably thought that I am okay with it. ?So i sat there on her lap for like 15 minutes. Then we all got up and went inside for the class. I walked towards my chair and this ginger midget walked beside me with her right hand planted on my ass. We sat on our seats perabet güvenilir mi and she put her right arm around my waist. She slid her right hand up inch by inch, or rather millimeter by millimeter, without applying any pressure. She started getting a feel of my right side boob. She started moving her right hand in the perpendicular direction moving in an even slower pace. She applied some pressure with her fingers. She pushed in her fingers little bit and then released and then continued it again stretched out all her fingers now so that she was touching my right side boob with all her fingers. This creepy ginger midget was satisfied that there was no reaction from me. She moved her fingers to more parts of my right side boob. She moved her fingers under my right boob feeling it all the way. She started supporting my right underboob with her fingers, taking up the heaviness of my right boob partly in her right hand. She even whispered to me “Big woman your massive heavy breasts must be giving a tough task to your blouse to hold on to it.” Then she started stroking my left shoulder and arm with her left hand. For the rest of the class she was massaging and holding my right breast with her right hand and stroking and rubbing my left shoulder and arm with her left hand. I just sat there not saying a word and let her do that to me..Workshop-class ended i got up, this weirdo ginger woman was still sitting and she reached out with her both hands and rubbed my ass. I went outside. She went to the restroom. On the parking lot i was talking with one facilitator, this ginger touchy feely woman came up from behind and placed her both hands on my ass. She stood behind me rubbing and lightly squeezing my ass while i was talking to the facilitator. .Then this ginger midget woman asked if I can give her a ride home. I was not really comfortable …I told her. ‘sorry my car is full of boxes and its kind of messy so”… She said she doesn’t mind. I repeated, I have boxes and stuff every where, sorry. She didn’t say anything after that so I assumed she got the hint and I started walking ahead of her to get into my car. I open it, and get in. Then I turn to see her, opening my car door. I just kind of watch as she starts moving my stuff out of the passenger’s seat and into the back. She sat down. I asked her for her address. We started heading towards her home and she kept telling me how thankful she was that I was doing this. She said he felt bad that she didn’t have any money to call a cab and I just said he was ok that I was happy to do it. I noticed that she was giving me directions to a pretty rough part of the city. It made me kind of nervous that I was heading to a part of town that I barely knew and stayed away from. During this time, she asked If i could hire her in my store. She begged me. I explained to her that i have enough employees. We get to her house, she invited me in. I declined her offer. Then she said “Big woman i just love your blouse. Satin is so smooth to touch. You are such a great woman. ” She reached out with her right hand tipobet and started rubbing my whole front side concentrating on my breasts. She was rubbing and feeling up my breasts in my own car for like 5 minutes. Again i did nothing. I didn’t even took her hand off, we even talked while she was touch rubbing her my breasts like nothing is happening. Then she thanked me for the 100th time and got out. I waved her off and then rushed away from her neighborhood. Afterwards when i got home I started breathing hard, my legs got weak, and my heart started to race really fast.What is wrong with me? I’m so ashamed that I couldn’t even say no or push this short skinny old woman away. The issue i need to address is not this woman groper but my passive reaction. And this predatory woman groper is physically completely harmless. She is not tough and strong. She doesn’t look intimidating. She is creepy and masculine but she is just a short, skinny, tiny old woman. I am physically stronger than her.I admit that being passive and powerless liberated me from the stress of proper behaviour. I abandoned all that stressful responsibility for my own actions. Why? For some reason i cannot, do not, fight this women off as i would some male who groped me. It was almost an out-of-body experience, watching myself allowing her hands to crawl over me. I didn’t get lesbian pleasure out of this. (I am strictly heterosexual – i am not a closet lesbian.) But I was getting a sort of meta-pleasure out of the abandonment and handing over of my body, delight being used for these short skinny old ginger ugly woman groper’s pleasure. I wish I could explain it better but can only express the feelings inside me in my poor humble way. .To my surprise, I have found I like to be dominated by this creepy repulsive weirdo ginger woman. But i got no direct sexual pleasure out of this short skinny creepy woman’s groping. I got meta pleasure. I have eroticised the passive suffering of the repulsive treatment i got. The core of this passiveness is how i was frozen to the spot and couln’t move or say anything. It was an incredible feeling, and it is this what i have eroticised. But WHY? As far as having intimacy with a woman? That’s just something that I haven’t done and will probably not do so. Im a straight woman never got turned on by a women. But how can I be a 100% straight and still enjoy this?I want to talk about this situation, because this is new to me. This meta pleasure. I admit to you that it turns me on that this older ugly short skinny masculine woman that would not even be anywhere near my league is so dominant with me . It seems as though this groper woman targeted me from the very beginning. I am physically stronger than her. Standing next to me she looks like a midget but she is not intimidated by me. Why? I know that this doesn’t mean that I’m gay as such, because I’ve had sex with men and I like men! I’m so worried that this isn’t normal!I am not scared of this woman groper. I just couldn’t verbalize a succinct “NO” to this short skinny creepy lesbian. I didn’t say anything or tell her to stop. She took on a very dominant personality almost immediately. She also took the initiative in touching me, groping me and publicly humiliating me in a way that made her seem very confident. I discovered this big part of me that wants someone to have power over me and take control of me.

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